Well, after being told by one of the shoppers that this was totally fabulous, I had to put this look up!

Updates on the situation - I was absolutely in the shits yesterday because apparently Lauren had said that me and Jillian think and rant too much about boys. She tells me that I don't need a man to define myself. I know this Lauren, this is what I have been saying for ages, but does anyone listen? When a single girl says something like that, she is bitter and twisted. She is only saying that because she has no one. But it's ok for the married one to say it. As she has a man, it HAS to be true!

Anyway, enough about it, I tend to let most things that Jillian tells me slide off my back, only because she is sensitive and takes a lot of things to heart! And most things that are not offensive could be construed as offensive by Jillian!

So I was in the shits and then Damion got on MSN. Got to talking about the general stuff (in the meantime talking to Shannon, which in itself is another story). And then he drops the bomb. He wants to start dating again. He thinks that the decision he made was too hasty and he regrets it. He wants to be more than just friends.

So we talked a little. He is not a talker, but I made him. I wanted to know what he was thinking, what he thought of me. I also followed Glamourously Fabulous Chloe's advice. Whatever you do, do not let him see all your cards. And I didn't. I wanted to tell him that I have been thinking about him for the past few days and that I wanted to be with him. Not for a serious relationship, but I liked him enough to see it going somewhere. But I didn't. And for all of you who are reading this, yes, I am playing a game. But I was about to follow my heart and take back this guy who had rejected me. Although he did it in the nicest possible way, it still hurt and I do not like the taste of rejection.

My mind (or maybe it was Chloe) was screaming at me "What the hell are you doing? This guy REJECTED you - do you not have any pride?"

Pride. That is my biggest downfall. I think I have had way too much of it in the past and it had made me lose friends and important relationships. So I made it up as I went along. And I think it worked. I have managed to find a middle ground between my heart and my mind.

So comes the next step. We're going to start dating again. This could end in heartache, or it could be one of the best things I'll ever do. Only time will tell.