Dreams of damion I am used to. But to dream of someone else, aka daniel. Wtf. Like seriously. Wtf.

I don't understand why I would dream abt cheating on luke. I would never do that in real life, and therefore, according to ty's logic, it should transend to my dreams. But it did not. I don't understand.

2008 has been such an interesting year for me. Boy wise. Thanks to an little thing called rsvp. I have met a stalker (joe), a freaky nerd (matt), a whinging teacher (chris), another nerd who had delusions of grandeur (ian), a bogan who I can relate to but can never date (pete), the good-looking cool rich guy (daniel) who I lost interest in after meeting mr commitment phobe hiself (damion). But I think that I have finally found my feet with it all, and its all thanks to luke.

Sure, i don't have the same physical attraction I do to him as I did to damion, nor does he make me feel deliriously happy like damion did. But there's no denying that luke is a whole lotta something special and I count myself lucky to have him. Sometimes. Sometimes he drives me up the wall, but I do hold my tongue to avoid an argument. And I think that if that's the worst thing in a relationship, then I'm on a good thing. He is making me a better person because I'm not so quick to say what's on my mind, nor am I as impulsive, which can only be a good thing, considering my last relationship was screwed up because I couldn't keep my mouth shut.

I just want these dreams to go away. They indicate to me that I am not secure in my relationship and I don't like that insecurity. I just don't.
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